Welcome, friends! I’m so honored to be joining Lara and the rest of the book club team to share my thoughts on Chapter 2 with you. Before we jump in, enjoy this little video from Lara 🙂
Chapter 2: Laying Down My Need to Control
“Lord, I just can’t do this on my own anymore. I can’t make the doors open. I can’t make my daughter sleep through the night. I can’t fix it. It’s Yours now. Your will, not mine.”
This year has rocked my sense of control. I thought I was in control of my career, and nearly lost it. I thought I was in control of my dreams, and God has blown me away with His vision for my life. I thought I would read a few books and know exactly how to raise a child. Then God blessed with me a daughter who is my mini-me in more than looks alone. I thought I could do it all, be supermom, super-wife, super-friend, and super-employee while life fit into neat little boxes.
“Up until then, I thought I controlled my life. I had boxes in my mind where I neatly placed people and situations, defining how life should behave. The labels on the outside explained the contents. And the lids stayed tightly closed.” ~ Lara Williams, To Walk or Stay
I tried. I tried to hang on to control with everything I had. I tried to keep fitting it all into those little boxes. Until I read this chapter in Lara’s book and realized that the only way to hold on to it all was to open my hands and lay it at the foot of the cross. I had to let it go.
I had to stop trying to fit every area of my life into a box. I had to stop trying to change “them” and ask God how He wanted to change my heart. I asked Him to show me how I was trying to control what wasn’t mine, and He did. Oh boy, He did. And He gently reminded me that nothing I could do in my attempt to control would stop the hard days from coming. My marriage would feel rocky some days. My daughter would have sleepless nights and tantrums. There would be sad days, frustrating days, surprisingly amazing days, and still some days would be valleys.
“This side of Christ’s return, valleys will come. Some valleys will knock us clear to the ground with their unpredictability. Others will just trip us up, leaving dust on our shoes. Regardless of the degree, they will come. But I’m convinced that He remains completely in control.” ~ Lara Williams, To Walk or Stay
This chapter reminded me:
- I don’t need to contend for control
- I don’t need to put God (or anyone..or anything else) in a box
- I don’t need to set the agenda
I just need to open my hands. Kneel low and let Christ be raised high. My heart desires His will to be done in my life – so I’ll pray every morning that I’ll be able to get out of the way, and trust Him again and again.
How have you seen the “desire to control” play out in your own life?
Take some time to write out your thoughts and prayer to our Lord. Be real. Be raw. Then allow His Truth to invade and rain down. He promises renewed strength for those who bind to Him. Share with us here, what specific verses encourage your spirit?
So glad you joined me today! Let’s chat with one another in the comments – if you don’t mind, will you show a little love to the person who comments before you, to keep the conversations going?