Today’s prompt from Holley Gerth: What part of your dream feels the riskiest? Have you ever had people misunderstand or disagree with your dream? What do you do when your dream is scary or when others don’t support you?
Pursuing my God Sized Dream would be simple a few things in my life were different.
If I lived alone.
If I weren’t married.
If I didn’t have a toddler.
I could throw caution to the wind, move halfway across the country for a job, spend all my money on blogging conferences, travel for speaking engagements, and go on retreats with my girlfriends to refresh and recharge. I could stay up until all hours building community, connecting, doing, dreaming, pouring into, and not worry about who or what I was neglecting.
That’s not my life. I don’t want that to be my life. The riskiest part of pursuing my God Sized Dream? Making sure that MY dream doesn’t cause harm to my family. Missing important events in my husbands life or significant milestones for my daughter. Putting strain on our marriage or our finances because I’ve decided that pursuing MY dream is more important than providing stability, or supporting my husband or daughter in their God Sized Dreams.
There are risks I have to take to obey the call God has put on my heart. Putting myself out there, planning, sharing my dream with others who might not understand. Spending time working, building community, learning, and searching for opportunities when I could be sleeping. In pursuit of my dream I risk traveling an unknown road and I take my family with me.
I am blessed to have a husband that supports me and believes in me, when I don’t believe in myself. He has spoken wisdom and truth over me, encouraged me, and helped me to be brave. But right now? Not much has happened with my dream that has changed our lives significantly. It’s all been benefits and blessings, so it’s easy to be supported. Will everyone in my life understand my decision if God opens doors that cause me to put the stability of my current situation aside to follow His will? Maybe not.
But I’m going to choose that road anyway. Because the road that follows God will always be risky, but I would rather walk beside a God who has good plans for me than choose the safe road the worlds puts before me. Let’s keep walking forward, sisters, with courage that comes from the One who poured these dreams into our hearts in the first place.
I’m linking up with Holley Gerth today – will you join me in reading the other God Size Dream team posts?
Jennifer Sikora says
Thank you for reminding me that my family comes first before my dream. I have let my life get out of balance and that is MY one word for this year!
Amy says
I think this maybe why God did not reveal my dream to me until after my kids were older because I am so bad that the whole balancing act thing. Your family is the most important dream you have right now but I also believe that if God has given you both the dream and the talent (which I can see that He has) then He will also work out the balance. Praying for you to find that peace in it all.
Crystal says
thanks Mel!
Crystal says
thanks so much!
Crystal says
Thank you for cheering me on!
Crystal says
It’s a hard one, isn’t it?
KristinHillTaylor says
I’m with you. The balance is the risk for me too.
Stacey Thacker says
Yep. I get this. The walking it out can be the most challenging. But, girl, I see you doing it with grace and heart. God blesses and He will continue to lead you!
Just Peachie says
Yes! Speaking to my heart! Thanks for sharing
Mel says
I love what you said about making your family a priority…because you’re right. A dream shouldn’t get in the way of our relationships with those we love. Your husband and daughter are blessed to have you. (And I know you feel equally blessed.) 🙂 Keep dreaming and doing, my friend…you are making a difference! Blessings!