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Homesick happens to me a lot. The feeling that wherever I am just isn’t where I’m meant to be, that there is some place I need to go back to, or forward to. I’ve always been the type to be homesick. I made it through very few sleepovers and camping trips as a child because my heart would physically ache for the comforts of home.
The familiar.
And now, my heart aches not for familiar walls and routine but for people. There are days when I may have been awake all night with my daughter but by noon the next day I’m homesick for her hugs and laughter while I’m at work and she’s at daycare. Home isn’t perfect. It’s full of dust bunnies, imperfect people, and a list of “someday” projects. But the sound of little feet running to greet me when I come home from work? That is where my heart is.
And now my heart is homesick for a place God wants me but doesn’t have me yet. The feeling of dreams fulfilled is like snuggling in fresh sheets from the dryer, finding your favorite fuzzy socks and curling in “your spot” with a toasty mug of hot chocolate. God has given me a taste of it and my heart aches to be in that place again. Where the striving and the “act” can go away and I can be myself, the me God has created me to be. Around people who love, support, encourage, and challenge me.
Home.
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So much is familiar here – I loved it and was encouraged by it. I love the idea that you can long for people like this – as much as a place. And oh, for the place that God would have you. Coming off a three year journey with Him through a desert wandering and am just now finding my way into where He would have me. I am praying right now that you would find His peace both in the journey and upon arrival. Blessings to you!
I,too, am feeling the tug of homesickness for where I am to settle on this God-Sized dream path. Thank you for sharing
Friend… praying for you right now. You have been such an encouragement to me and I have felt you love and hugs – can I do the same friend? Reaching over and holding your hand. {Hugs}
you bless me so much! it is only by the grace of God and the prayers of amazing friends like you that any of it happens at all 🙂
cynthia, you are the sweetest! it’s been a sleepless week with the kiddo actually, so it was early to bed for this mama. plus, i like to give other ladies the chance for the #1 spot every once in awhile 😉
So lovely to see you here Christie 🙂
Yes. YES! “And now my heart is homesick for a place God wants me but doesn’t have me yet”. That is the BEST way to describe how I feel right now. Loved this post. Hopping over from FMF link up.
Love love love the descriptive way you pulled me in! “The feeling of dreams fulfilled is like snuggling in fresh sheets from the dryer, finding your favorite fuzzy socks and curling in “your spot” with a toasty mug of hot chocolate.” YES!
I have to tell you, and it seems funny now to think of it, but I literally prayed for you when I saw you weren’t in the first couple of spots for adding your link. I’m, like, “Whoa, I hope it’s nothing with the kids…” Is it?
I love how your version of homesickness is more about being around familiar people rather than places. Hmmm…food for thought.
I too miss “home” . . . I find when I miss home I live in the “what was” or “what could have been”. I like the idea of being a turtle, they are slower, contemplative and always have “home” with them.
Be Blessed.
This gives me such joy to watch you growing into yourself and who you were meant to be. That “acting” is just the practicing and beginning of learning how to DO! There’s isn’t a thing in the world wrong with it, otherwise how will you get better and become? These struggles and desires are just going to propel you toward the goal set before you. Be encouraged and let them motivate you. I am truly loving watching your dream bloom into reality!
My heart often aches for people, too, Crystal. What a beautiful perspective you share here!
Amen to this!
“Where the striving and the “act” can go away and I can be myself, the me God has created me to be. Around people who love, support, encourage, and challenge me.”
This is the place I’m praying you find!! I can so relate to the striving and acting and the longing to just be me.
I can so identify with “homesick”. That’s how I feel sometimes for New Orleans (which I wrote about today). We evacuated after the storm and have now set up life here in Boston. This home has many comforts, but that home is where our lives started, so I think my heart will always yearn for those wild, exciting, new, and rich beginning days. I love the way you brought it back home (hehe) in the end to remind us that our true home is heaven. Loved this FMF!