I have often set New Years resolutions for myself – a list of goals and dreams I’d like to accomplish in the new year, convincing myself that turning a page in the calendar will mean a totally new me, a new attitude, and a new sense of purpose.
It makes sense that I would do this – our culture loves a fresh start, and I love a good “to do” list to check off. But every year I set goals for myself that I can never keep.
- Blog every day
- Lose 20 pounds
- Go to the gym 4 days a week
- Start a daily cleaning schedule
- Send snail-mail letters to a friend once a week
- Write a book
- Do a Bible study every morning
All of those? They’re all wonderful and needed and important to my life. But when I put the pressure on myself to wake up on January 1 and do 100 new things every day – endlessly – with no grace? I froze. I didn’t know where to start, or how to handle failing, so I chose not to do any of it.
Last year I discovered Alece and her incredible OneWord365.com project. Instead of a list of “must-do’s” and “should-do’s,” One Word is about prayerfully considering the one word that will shape your year. The one word God has put on your heart as something to focus on, work on, believe in, strive for. In 2013 I chose “commit.” I thought it would mean that I would simply do what I needed to do for my family, regardless of my passion for the work, to commit to keeping us secure. Instead? God meant that I would commit my heart more completely to Him as all of that security fell away. I would commit to doing whatever I needed to do to bring my heart closer to His, to change mindsets, patterns, self-imposed needs, and commit to His will – no matter how scary.
My plan in 2013? It would have resulted in a miserable year.
God’s plan for my year & my word? It resulted in change unlike anything I could have ever imagined, but blessings upon blessings. Gifts given in unexpected and amazing ways. And grace sweeter than I deserved.
This year, I start the New Year on a new journey. One that has me shaking in my $7 Old Navy flats (they’re super cute..with polka dots). I’ll write more about that tomorrow, but for today? For this year? The word God has on my heart is “capable.”
Capable. What I don’t think I am right now. The word that has haunted me this year, the word God has pressed on to my heart to believe about myself – and about Him. I go into the new year with a God who is more than capable, who will fill in the gaps when I’m not, and who has so faithfully, gently, spoken encouragement into this broken part of my heart.
Do you set New Years resolutions? Are you joining Alece and the OneWord365.com community? I’d love to know what your word will be – and don’t forget to check out the lovely “share” buttons on her site to create your own OneWor365 branded button for your blog!