There are days when working at home by myself means I’m spending an awful lot of time with…me. And while I’m naturally in introverted person who prefers to write words rather than speak them, I can get a little too internally focused, a little too involved in myself, and a lot insecure.
I’m learning that being lost in my own thoughts without intentionally taking to stand up, walk around, refocus and center back on God gives the enemy a lot of room to sneak into my head. Working online all day, seeing the tweets and Pins and Facebook updates and brilliantly written blog posts can start to make a girl doubt her gifts and the value of her contributions.
And when I keep all those thoughts inside and pack them along on a trip to a blogging conference, the enemy goes along for the ride and I start to forget that God has placed each of us in our season, in this moment in time, with these gifts for a reason. And that my calling to encourage and write and mother and be a good wife and build community and use these talents isn’t supposed to be compared to anyone else’s calling.
It’s supposed to be combined.
Working together to further the kingdom. Working side-by-side and loving each other through the thick of it and the success and the failure and living in the victory God has already claimed.
But I forget. And when I forget long and hard enough, the internet come around again to help. You see, I feel passionately that true community can be built online. I know and have seen that women can change the world through tweets and encouraging messages and authentic living and imperfect writing. I have been introduced to some of my very best friends because of the internet – and in those moments where my heart needs someone who gets it?
I send a quick SOS Voxer to a friend states away. A lie detector friend. The one I can dump all the doubts and insecurities to and she can read through the lines and speak truth and help me fight lies. These are the friends who hear my words but hear beyond them to know my heart and my hurts and can remind me who God created me to be. They spot the lies and reveal what they are so they no longer have a hold over me.
We all need lie detector friends. Women who are rooted in Scripture and who can receive an urgent message with grace and the courage to speak truth when it doesn’t always feel good. We need women who can walk in their calling and their passions and share their struggles and hurts, so we can do the same alongside them and do more and do better for the kingdom.
Let’s do better.