I sit at my computer with tabs open to blog posts, social media sites, projects launching, conferences scheduled and book releasing and I’m torn. One side of me loves to see what God is doing in the lives of my friends and the women I know online. The other side of me can’t help but wonder why I struggle with feeling excluded in areas where God hasn’t yet intended for me to be included.
We all want to be invited.
And sometimes that need to be included in everything makes me dissatisfied with everything. I can’t enjoy where God has me, the tasks He’s given me, the doors He’s opened, the opportunities and friendships when my heart is always craving something else.
And that need to be included in everything makes me want to say “yes” to everything before seeking God’s will. Maybe one day God will want me to write that book, speak on that stage, meet that woman, lead that project – but if I’m not ready for it yet, no matter how much my heart wants it, it needs to be a “no.”
We all want to feel special.
From the outside it can look like the internet is full of tiny little cliques of “cool kids” who are getting together without you, planning fabulous retreats and launching amazing initiatives while I sit in my office at home surrounded by piles of laundry, dishes in the kitchen sink, enough snow clothes from my toddler to keep a polar bear warm, and a blank “to do” list because I’m not sure I know today what it is that God even wants me to do.
And when I take my worth and my expectation of success and measure it against what it looks like the rest of the world is doing, I will always feel like a less-than failure. But when I take my worth and my expectation of success and choose to believe that were they come from isn’t found on a computer screen but in Jesus Christ who called me and chose me and has given me an assignment to do for His glory – not my own – then I will feel included.
“And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth,the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of his glory.” Ephesians 1:13-14
Because God doesn’t call us to do what everyone else is doing. He calls us to be included with Him to love others, to share His word, to laugh with those who laugh and weep with those who weep – not judge them for laughing or scorn them for weeping. God has chosen you.
You are invited.
You are included.
You are worthy and loved and needed and what you do is important, whether it looks like laundry or board meetings.
We are called to love. Let’s love well this week, even – maybe especially – when our hearts crave to be included.