Linking up with Lisa-Jo Baker and the Five Minute Friday group today.
Here is the truth I’m living right now.
I just co-hosted a live webinar about eBook writing and spent all my time off camera coughing and wondering why it’s taking me so long to write a book.
I have a topic, one I’m passionate about. I have an outline, the start of a proposal, and enough feedback to tell me I could do it.
But then I see another tweet from a brilliant author about another blogger and I suddenly believe that I shouldn’t bother. No one “famous” is telling the world that I’m great at what I do. No “big blogger” is sharing my post and sending it into a viral frenzy. I’m not being missed, asked for, invited. I am, however, apparently wearing my whiney-pants.
My words just sit here. Pedestrian. Without proper sentence structure, flair, proper grammar or punctuation. It’s been nearly five years since I started this blog and the truth is? Even though I SHOULD write and tell you that I don’t care about any of those things – the sharing, the viral posts, the praise – the truth is? I do care. More that I would like to admit to you if “truth” weren’t the word-of-the-week. And I’m too much of a rule-follower to edit this and not tell you the truth.
The truth is? I work a lot of jobs and I don’t spend enough time responding to comments here, or on Twitter, or looking at friend requests on Facebook. I feel like I’m involved on those spaces because I read through the conversations on my phone but forget to take the time to actually comment. I’ve become the definition of a lurker and I don’t know what to cut out to feel like I’ve got time to “do it right.”
The truth is? I don’t know how to write a book about community when I feel alone.