I’m so excited to join Lisa-Jo Baker and the brave, beautiful writers who write fearlessly & edit-free for five minutes each week. And this is the first official Five Minute Friday here on the new site! Such fun 🙂
She hands me baby Jesus from her nativity scene, wrapped in a huge Minnie Mouse blanket. “Baby sleeping, mama – rock-a my baby.” Well, when innocent toddler hands pass you a baby Jesus, what else can you do? I sat there with that little plastic figure on my lap and remembered. I remembered how this year took me on a roller-coaster of fear, doubt, joy, peace, anxiety, worry, and trust.
I thought of a few months ago, sitting around a table with a team of brainstorming friends as we decided to “go big or go home” – to risk losing face to dream big and trust God. This week? (in)Mercy not only achieved 100% funding but went two (or three?) phases over what had ever even been planned. All funded by a God with limitless resources and reach and love and we took shoes off to fall on holy ground.
I thought back to last Christmas, when doors started closing – doors to things I thought were good, but God knew better. He closed “good” to make room for “mind-blowing.” Everything I though I needed, everything I thought I deserved, and everything that defined me, God flipped upside down until all I had left was to hold on to Him with all I had and ask Him to fill in the spaces.
I thought back further – to a gathering of my sweetest in real life friends, when God first put on my heart and my lips what would turn into a God-sized dream that I never expected in a million years to see come true. But isn’t that the way with God-sized dreams? So big that we could never achieve them with our own abilities, making room for God to do the work and receive the glory.
And even further, to the first Christmases with my husband, just the two of us in a tiny little home and me with no plans to ever be a mama. Now here I am, surrounded by toys and mess and singing the “turtle song” over..and over…and over…in public…to make this little one happy.
What God has done in 10 years? 3 years? This week?
He has answered.
He has sifted.
He has redeemed.
This Advent I’m reading through Ann Voskamp’s beautiful “The Greatest Gift.” To keep myself accountable, I’m posting a photo each day on Instagram with a quote that stood out to me. If you’d like to follow along, you can follow my Instagram feed here!