I’m linking up at Lisa Jo’s again (http://lisajobaker.com/2012/08/five-minute-friday-change/) today for 5 Minute Friday – the one post each week I don’t have to personally plan or really even think about! If you’ve been in a writing funk or just have had NO TIME to write the words, I encourage you to link up. You only get 5 minutes, and you write whatever comes to mind about the topic. It’s wonderful. And freeing. And I love it.
Today’s Topic: Change
This topic of change comes up over and over again in my life lately. Changing for other people. God working a change in my heart. Changing clothes. Changing my daughter. This word, this “change” – it can be applied in so many ways and mean so many things that I’m not sure I understand the full impact of the meaning anymore.
I put my nose in the Word before the sun rises because I desperately need God to work a good change in my heart, from the inside out. The uncomfortable kind, the change that makes me want to retreat under the covers of what I know and can handle. I don’t want to be stuck in this skin of who I’ve become, who everyone thinks I am. I want God to take apart the little pieces that have stopped glorifying Him and change them into beauty.
I want to show my little girl and my husband that I can be more. I can love more, I can have more patience, I can give more. I no longer want to have one foot stuck in the pre-kiddo life that I miss terribly some days. I want to change and embrace fully this new life as a mom, even, and maybe especially, the hard days. I want the kind of change in my life that pleases God first and doesn’t care at all about what the rest of the world thinks. Father, help me know the difference.