Motherhood has taught me a valuable lesson.
I will fail. And that’s okay.
Before having my daughter I made very successful choices. I made decisions and judgments based on whether or not I knew in advance that I would succeed. If it was questionable, if there was a chance I could fall on my face, I passed. God opened a lot of doors that I chose to ignore because it didn’t seem like the safe choice.
While carefully selecting the easy road made me look good, with fancy titles that grew as I climbed the corporate ladder, it never felt right. It felt easy, but empty.
When God gave us our daughter, my life changed. No longer could I control the outcome of every situation. No longer was I able to choose the easy, successful road. There was no way to guarantee that she would sleep well, eat when she was supposed to, develop and hit all of her milestones. As much as I tried to prepare for the big moments and the little details, God had other plans.
I would fail.
….{head over to Mothers of Daughters to read this whole in-between-section? A repost from last year that I think we might all need as the summer expectations pile on}
As my daughter grows older I want her to see me choosing the harder road, the one that doesn’t promise success. I want her to see me fail, and still give honor to God. I want her to see me waking up weary and doing the hard things again the next day – not because I think I will succeed, but because it’s the kingdom work God has for me. I will fail. And it will be okay.
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I love this and wow, is it so true! Learning to fail and continue to fail forward. My kids have seen me at my strongest and weakest moments – I truly believe taking off the mask allows my kids to see the real me and the embrace of a very real God.
I’m following your posts from 5 Minute Friday and the P31 Blog Hop! Small world! It has been so much fun connecting with you!
Failing and still giving honor to God. This is such a sacred reminder. When I fail, it is not because He failed. If I continue to honor Him – He will be faithful. I know that sounds so simple – but it wasn’t until I read your post. Yes, honor Him and let my kids see that. That is so much easier than trying to never fail – since we know that isn’t a realistic plan. And it is much better than giving up and failing just because we know we can’t be perfect. Once again, thanks for revealing truth in beautiful words.
Crystal, thank you so much for sharing your blog….it is just beautiful. I love how you say it’s okay when we fail. I am so thankful for God’s grace & mercy & that He still loves me even on the days I fail miserably. Your little girl is so lucky to have you for her momma & to have such a wonderful example of a momma set for her.