“…I’d rather say five words that everyone can understand and learn from than say ten thousand that sound to others like gibberish.”
1 Cor. 14:19, MSG
I’ve been writing this blog for a few years now. It’s been off and on with seasons of plenty and seasons of famine. I’ve struggled with being a small blogger, comparing myself to the women I wish I could be. I’ve written about marriage, children, crafts, home decor, product reviews, book reviews, Bible studies, vacations, sadness, celebrations, and everything in between. I don’t have a niche, unless my niche is simply “life.” I write what’s on my heart. I write because God has given me the gift of words and my heart demands that I use them.
But has it all been gibberish? Thousands of written words on this blog, but who do they glorify? Who am I trying to please? Why do I write?
According to the banner image at the top of my page, you would think the answer would be easy. But I’m human, and I’ve failed. I’ve written out of jealousy, to prove that I’m better than someone else. I’ve written to try to grab the attention of the “big” bloggers I adore, crafting words to appeal to them. I’ve been scared to write posts because of who might read them, ignoring the tug God has put on my heart to share. I write to keep up with “her” or to participate in the popular link up.
I know it’s not all gibberish. There have been moments of glory, with God lifted high. These blog posts? They are my Ebenezer, recording the faithfulness and mercy of a loving God. But in the thousands of words, how many would lead you to learn about the grace of a God who calls us to be His sons and daughters?
The prayer of my heart is that God would use this blog for His will. Fewer words for me, more for Him, in a way that is honest, true, and a reflection of my heart. I just want to shine for Him. Imperfection, gibberish & all.