We have these panels on our front door windows. Areas that are intentionally blurry to create a beautiful design. This morning as I got my coffee I realized that I could see our outdoor lights perfectly if I looked a certain way. Other times, I only saw small, distorted glimpses of the beauty I knew was out there, lighting up the darkness.
It made me realize that my year has felt like that. I’d tilt my head one way for a new look and receive a fresh vision of the goodness God has planned for me. Other times, I’d look through the exact same view and feel confused, lost, unfocused. The same Light was out there, holding firm, but my perspective changed.
There were times over the past year that I would look for God and only see the blank spaces, the darkness that wasn’t being touched by the light. Somehow I knew He was still there, still with me, but I was stuck looking from a place that felt broken and blurry. It’s been a year full of change and uncertainty, but also joy and hope. The same door but with two options for viewing what the day might hold. I thought that healing would come from a completely different door, believing everyone who told me I needed to change, be less of who I was created to be, be more like “her.” In reality? I didn’t need a new door, I just needed to take a small step to the side. Same me, same door, clearer vision.
There is hope, even on the darkest days at the end of a long, hard year.
Whether you’re looking toward the end of this year with clear vision of the dreams and goals and goodness God has for you, or you’re trying desperately to look through and figure out what in the world you’re even seeing, you’re not alone. God is still God, even when our own vision fails us, our hearts deceive us, or our agendas distract us. Shift your gaze a tiny bit and see if you can’t just find a clear view of Him. He’s there, and He’s not changing.
In completely unrelated news, we finalized the book cover for “Holy Hustle” this week and I am DYING to show it to you! As soon as I’m allowed, you will be the first to see it. I love it so much, and to be honest, I heard horror stories about this part of the process so I was ready for a battle. But my team at Harvest House is THE BEST. Don’t be afraid to go after your dreams and goals because someone else tried it and said it was too hard. Go after it anyway and invite God to surprise and delight you. xoxo
I’m right there with you friend! I’m ready for a new year to begin.