“Be on the lookout for mercies. The more we look for them, the more of them we will see. Blessings brighten when we count them.” – Malthie D. Babcock
I am a Type A girl who likes everything in it’s place, exactly the way I think is best, and without question. I like when plans work out perfectly, when the picture in my head matches reality, and my expectations are exceeded.
I am a mother.
Absolutely nothing in my life matches what is in my head.
I trip over toys, books, little shoes for feet that don’t even know how to stand let alone walk. Furballs floating across the floor are the only evidence to our guests that we even have cats, because the two of them hide when we have company. My best plans for our daughter, when to eat/sleep/change diapers/play are usually all wrong.
I’m constantly planning ahead all the time for the “next” thing. I talk about the next house, the next car, what it will be like to not have student loans, what we’ll do on vacation, what it will be like when the garage/pantry/closet/laundry room/spice cabinet is finally organized. And somehow, while living in the future, my mind stays stuck in the past. Reliving & regretting. Because nothing ever turns out in real life the way you build it up in your head.
And while my mind is everywhere but the present, I miss out on the gifts God gives me every day. I believe that the enemy is so powerless against God that he can’t stop the blessings, but he can do everything in his limited power to make us focus everywhere but where God has us right now.
I am a mother.
I have a beautiful, healthy daughter. An amazing husband who is my best friend in the entire world. That is what I want to focus on. Not what’s coming next. Not what happened last year. Just today. This minute. I don’t want to miss the blessings anymore.
You’re sweet, thank you!
This is just what I needed to hear today 🙂 You spoke the words right outta my heart! Thank you!<3