There are days when I wish I had a jar of stones to remind me of prayers answered, steps taken, small victories. My memory? It fails me. To be honest, I have no idea if what I’m about to write has already been written somewhere else on my blog and my heart just needs to speak the words again.
It’s frustrating, not being able to remember. My husband can remember where we had dinner 4 years ago, what we each ordered, and whether or not I liked it. I couldn’t even tell you what I had for breakfast yesterday.
I think that’s why I doubt these God Sized Dreams of mine. I’m not wired to remember the small steps to success I’ve taken in the past. My brain says “Yes, you achieved that…” but my heart says “but don’t you remember failing so many times before?” My brain says “You worked so hard to earn that….” but my heart says “..remember what you lost along the way?”
Instead of letting the enemy win and replace my dreams with doubt, this time? I’m retraining my heart.
You don’t deserve that dream
You’re going to fail
Someone else would do a better job
You could lose what you have now
You’re going to mess it up
Those are lies. I might not be able to tell you 100% that I know exactly what God wants me to do with this dream He’s given me, but I believe God is for me.
I’m not sure if you’re like my husband and can remember everything like it happened two minutes ago. Or maybe you’re like me and remember even less now that you’re a mommy to a toddler who stole all the good brain cells. Maybe you’re just tired. Under attack. Doubting. Lacking a support system to encourage you when you feel like you can’t do it anymore.
You can.
You can do this. I’m telling myself as. much as anyone.
It’s ok to pursue the dream God has put on your heart.
Every small step forward is an inch closer to your dream. You’re closer today than you were yesterday.
Those little steps? The result of leaning on God and trusting His Word and not the enemy? Eventually, it adds up to big success.
You know what? I’ll probably mess something up along the way. I’ll be too excited and pursue too passionately because it’s who I am. I’ll open my mouth and over share ideas when I need to just sit back. But this God Sized Dream? If I truly believe that God has put it on my heart to pursue this, I have to believe it’s because He plans to use all of those things for His glory and not my shame.
I believe in you, my friend. In your dream. Believe that God is for you today. And let’s find those stones and write our small steps so we can keep moving forward.
“I might not be able to tell you 100% that I know exactly what God wants
me to do with this dream He’s given me, but I believe God is for me.” I love this..I feel like I can relate to it. Even though I think I know what my dream is, I’m sure there will be some surprise twists and turns along the journey. 🙂 Thank you for the encouragement to keep dreaming and pushing toward what He has for me. Blessings to you!
I believe in YOU. You are right where God wants you, in that space of having to FULLY rely on Him to see it to completion. He is moving in you, my friend, He is working behind the scenes even in the moments you’ve already forgotten, He is there. He is faithful. Commit your plans to the Lord and you will not fail. (Proverbs 16:3) Cheering you on loudly from the front row, shaking my sequins and “whoop-whooping” for you! God is faithful!! I love you!
I think this is a perfect opportunity to use your One Word and COMMIT to your memory and heart all the victories and, sometimes, the survivals on your way to the fulfilled dream. You encourage me so much and I want t do the same thing for you right now. Keep your eye on the goal and you will step over most obstacles without having to try too hard. If you’ve ever used a crosswalk in a major city you know what I mean. You don’t look at what’s coming towards you or you will bump into it. keep your eyes on where you are going! You can do this thing. If it is God’s will, who then can stop it? 🙂
I too have trouble remember the ‘good’ things but it seems the negative times replay in mind every minute.
Isn’t it amazing how we will reinforce the memory of failures but we really fail when we don’t mark the moments with stones like the patriarchs? I’m right there with you on changing…
Love this… My soul often practices a certain amnesia when it comes to remembering what God has blessed with… Thank you friend for sharing so honestly here.
Be too excited and pursue too passionately. Share when I should sit back. Yep, that’s me too! Thank you sharing these much needed reminders… and I love the picture!
Love Love Love this post- thank you for the reminders!
I will mess up along the way too! I like the stone idea! I think I may just need to collect some rocks when those prayers I offer up are answered. We could have quite a collection!